The land in between

It started at the end of March, you can read about the beginning of this journey here. 


Then on April 15th, I shared this: "Michael has been interviewing, applying, and searching for jobs. We see God at work even in the no's and we are certainly learning to live in faith with each passing day. We are still holding out for that "yes". Even with a 50% cut in pay, God has been faithful and provided above and beyond our needs for the month of April. Thank you Jesus!"


Towards the end of April this song really spoke to me, it put into words the feelings and thoughts I have had with Michael being out of work. You can read the lyrics here.  


That brings us to the beginning of May when I wrote this blog post titled hoping less not hopeless.


And then I was reminded towards the middle of May how awesome God's provision has been for us during this time of Michael being out of work and I recorded them on this post titled "I stand".

Then at the beginning of June, I had this to say:


"We are on the third month of Michael being out of work but the Lord continues to provide in amazing ways. Michael still continues to teach CPR classes and do some work for his brother. It's keeping him quite busy which has been good for him, he's not one to sit around during the day and do nothing. But the exciting news is that Michael interviewed with a company called Go Daddy and he is now in the next phase while they do a background investigation on him. We are praying that this is the job for Michael. He and I both feel this would be a great job and Michael will definitely say yes if offered the job. So we wait. That's the hard part. And we hope and pray it's a yes!"


And that brings us to today, the end of June and we find ourselves in the same position- JUST WAITING! It's getting really old. Michael's interview with GoDaddy was one month ago almost to the day and we are still waiting to see if he will be offered the job. There have been coversations over the past month and although they have all been positive and they are certainly interested in Michael, we still have no offer. Maybe this week will be the week that we hear? We are kind of getting tired of this question as we have been asking ourselves this question for the past several weeks. At this point we just want answers even if it's a no because at least we can close that door and move on to the next. Afterall we are kind of used to closed doors since we entered this journey. There are days where this is all downright frustrating and today that is where we find ourselves. But then I'm reminded of the message we heard in church yesterday. We had a guest speaker and the message was one of those messages that really spoke to us as if it was written for us. It was about "the land in between", the place where you find yourself in the wilderness so to speak. Our land in between is this place we have been for three months as we wait for Michael to find a job. We are so ready to be out of this land in between and move to the other side but it could very well be that we find ourselves in this place for a lot longer than 3 months. The preacher spoke out of Numbers 11 where Moses comes before the Lord with the Isrealites complaints and then the Lord lays out a plan for Moses on what to do and say to the Israelites. He talked about how when we find ourselves in the land in between that we have to be careful to guard our hearts during this time because our complaints can so easily turn from "Why is this happening to me?" to "God, why are YOU doing this to me?"  just as the Israelites did. Their anger quickly turned towards God as if He was to blame for them being between Egypt and the land God had promised them. They had lost all trust and could only utter complaint after complaint. It's important to guard our hearts during our times in the wilderness and find that our God is present and that He is good and not lose sight of this. We can even find ourselves blessed in the land in between. And as far as our grumbles and complaints, they can be viewed as an unwanted visitor in our homes and very soon can take up residence and take over. The only thing that can evict this unwanted visitor called complaint is trust. Trust in God that He has a plan for us even in the land in between. So that is where we are at, we are trusting and holding our palms open wide for His provision and blessings during this time because He is good and He is present. And we are trusting Him that we will not always find ourselves in the land in between. But until then we wait with a trusting heart.